Why do I feel so down today?

Thursday, July 10, 2014

I got up a little earlier than I usually do today.  I'm not sure why - I didn't turn off my light until after two this morning.  I don't remember having weird dreams or anything, but I may have.  I haven't had any carry-on dreams for a while, and those are the ones I remember best upon waking, and I'm GLAD - very glad - when I don't have those!  I fell right back asleep after Ron left, so I am assuming that I just slept very deeply, and very well, and just woke earlier because I was done.  That's my story, and I'm sticking with it!

I got up a little after noon, and played on the pute for a bit.  I just didn't feel like doing anything else.  Luckily, I had the dishes and laundry all caught up, even though the laundry is still in baskets (I don't trust myself lifting the baskets up onto the bed, so I can put the clothes away) and I could, theoretically, do that, but....nah.  I just feel mopey.  I don't feel 'good' but I don't feel ill.  I just don't feel like doing anything.  I am only on the pute for about 45 minutes, then I am back in bed for a while.  For my lunch, I didn't even make myself anything - I had two slices of cheese and a pack of Nutty Bars.
I knew it was a weird feeling I was having today, but I couldn't shake it.  I was up and down, on and off the bed, oh, probably five times today - usually it's just two or three times, for up to two hours each time.  I just couldn't do that today.  The longest I stayed up was one hour, maybe one hour and ten minutes.  Ugh.  What the heck is going on?

When Ron called me a little after five, saying he was on his way home, that made me feel a little better, but still not enough to get up before he actually got here.  Believe it or not, he then told me he wanted to go over to Felicity, to the FeedMill, for supper!  Wow!  I finished the Guideposts magazine I was reading, then got up and freshened up - I sure didn't feel like taking a whole shower! - and got dressed, and off we went.
We both got specials from off of their board - me a Country Fried Steak dinner, and him the Fishtail Dinner - and we had a waitress we are friendly with, and we got to talk to her for a bit.  She asked us about not seeing us for a while, etc., and it was very nice to know we were missed.  It was a much nicer experience than last week's, that's for sure!
When we came back toward home, I had to go on up to Bethel to go do the Altar Society raffle for the month.  We don't have a meeting in July, because the first Wednesday is sometimes so mixed up with the holiday.  Ron waited for me in the truck, and I got that done (we didn't win, phooey), then we came home.
When we came home, Ron checked the bird nest in the far porch light, and the eggs have hatched!  We have little birdies!  I took a picture of them through the screen door - they were so cute.  So tiny and fuzzy.

So, here we are - him watching TV through his eyelids, as usual, and me on the pute, though I am getting ready to go to bed.  I am exhausted tonight.  Part of it is the feeling down thing, and part is the good supper, and part is the getting up earlier.

I have plans for tomorrow, and we'll see if they pan out or not...I sure hope I am feeling better!