Monday, February 1, 2016 -
Friday, February 5, 2016
Already one whole month of 2016 has passed, and not much has changed. I think I must soon do something about that, but with the way everything is going, I really don't have much motivation to do anything.
Financial problems, as usual in the winter. No news from Social Security and my disability claim - I did get that one packet of papers to fill out mid-January, which gave me a bit of hope, but really, it's now been 14 months and ~ nothing ~ so we continue to wait. It's very frustrating.
I did lose some weight during December and January - but not enough to equal anything, so I don't feel as if I am off that mesa - and I've gained again this past week. Now what? What can I use for motivation? I've reached the goal I set before.
I just feel as though we are stuck in the same deep dark hole with slippery sides and I feel as though it's mostly my fault and there's nothing I can do to help the situation. Nothing.
I lost my job, losing us precious extra money.
I screwed up our finances, I suppose by not factoring less money into our spending, during early 2013.
I had a heart attack, causing major medical bills.
I then totally screwed up our finances because my brain didn't function correctly and I didn't give a crap about paying bills and I didn't pay things unless and until I had to for the next six months of 2013.
I fell, breaking my back, causing major - major! - medical bills once again.
I was bedridden for six weeks after the fall, causing brain misfunction once again. My big thrill was turning over! I mostly slept.
And, now, my sugar is out of control again. Again!! I had it under good control - what the hell happened?
See? It's all me...Ron goes to work every day, works and works and works, sometimes for 14 hours a day. I can't ask any more of him. It's all me.
What am I to do?
This week was mostly spent here at home, playing Happy Homemaker. Ugh! The only good thing was that I had found out that my battle with the DMV was mostly over and I didn't need a chauffeur to do the things I needed to do day in and day out.
On Tuesday, when I went to my follow-up doctor appointment, he wasn't totally happy with my numbers. True, they are running 100 less than a month ago, but they are still 100-150 too high, so he prescribed me another pill since I can't really change my diet (I am only eating between 1200 and 1500 calories a day) and with that kind of diet, I can't add a tremendous amount of exercise. So...yippee...another pill. One of those new ones - Invokana - and I get to go back in another month.
When I stopped at the pharmacy to pick it up, it isn't our usual $10. copay, but $30. Well, we can't afford that!
The next day, I called the insurance - "it's a Tier 2 drug" - and then called the doctor's office to explain and they told me about a card plan for Invokana for people with private insurance, but I had to come to the office and pick the card (and packet) up. Geez!
So, Thursday, it was back on the road up to Milford again to pick this card up. It was a good thing, though, because once the card was activated, it paid, and will pay for an entire calendar year, the entire copay for us. Yay - a small victory! I got all the other errands done while out, too, and finally got home and collapsed into the recliner.
And here we are to today. I spent the day doing more Happy Homemaker shit. Dishes, scrubbing the bathroom, mopping the kitchen floor, baking the cake(s) I'm making for the Super Bowl, cooking a beef stew all day for supper. I just kept going and going and going. I was glad to take my break at 3:00!! Ron got home before 4:00, but he's not been feeling great and he pretty much fell asleep as soon as he sat down in his recliner. He didn't even take his boots off! He finally woke up at 6:30 when I sat his bowl of stew on the tray in front of him.
Being so busy today, I hear my bed calling me, and I've got tons of running to do tomorrow.
My final trip to the DMV, pick up (weekly) prescriptions, weekly shopping, banking, and so on and so forth. Then home to finish getting the house ready for the onslaught on Sunday.
It's gonna be great!!
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