Summertime Blues

Friday, July 8, 2016 -
    Wednesday, July 20, 2016


Sorry that I haven't bored you all with the desultory facts of my day-to-day life, but not much has changed, and I haven't been feeling all that well.  Not sick, mind you, just not good - I'm sure it's the heat, even though most days I seem to be on the cold side instead.  It doesn't make a whole lot of sense...
I haven't even been walking out to meet Ron in the afternoons, and I am SO seriously searching for new motivation for staying on this weight loss journey.  I am satisfied with where I am (I met the goals that I set for myself at the beginning of this journey!), but I really should lose at least 25 more, and to be at or near my premium weight, I should lose around 75 more pounds.  I'm pretty sure that's never gonna happen, but if I lose 25 more, I will be well under 200 and I will be one of the happiest people on the planet!  But I have lost my motivation and can't find it.  I have no goals now, having met the ones already set, except for getting under 200 - I did make it to 200.9! - and I just can't think of any others to light the fire...

With all my medical problems, I do wonder if I should even worry so much about the weight.  I do eat so differently than I used to.  We talked about that at the last TOPS meeting - about how each of us has learned (and changed) how to eat properly, how to eat good foods, how to eat within a certain calorie count, and to stay - make a lifestyle change, not be "on a diet" - on that path and not go back to the gluttonous ways.
Some of my medical problems will eventually cause weight loss "naturally" but I don't want to wait until then - by then, it will be too late! I must keep things in control myself.

I have been on this journey for over three years now, and I just don't know how to make it be fun and exciting anymore.  It's really getting to be a chore and I don't like that.  But what can I do?


I will persevere!


On the other hand, I have been doing my little bit in getting donations for the church, which, on the days I go out, takes the whole day.  I have to go to the stores/shops/restaurants, park, go in, do my spiel, go back out, go to the next place, park, etc. over and over.  It takes time and patience - and my back lets me know about it very quickly.
After the first go-round, I now just go back to see if "anything" has been decided (or to remind them that we'd still like a donation) and, most of the time, leave empty-handed.  It is drudge work.
I hope you all have the evening of August 6th marked on your calendars to come up to the Pig Roast at St. Mary's Church in Bethel!  Not only can you get a wonderful meal for very little money, you can also buy raffle tickets to place in buckets in front of the baskets I am working so hard to help put together!  Raffle tickets are $1.00 apiece, 6 for $5.00, or 15 for $10.00.....see, you really get your money's worth, because there are at least 25 baskets!  Something for everyone!
Please don't let all my work go to waste.....please....