A depressing day for me

Thursday, March 6, 2014

I woke up this morning a little after 10.  After reading a little bit, I got up, piddled around the house for a bit, waiting for Ron to call and let me know about his paycheck.  As soon as I knew, I had to go down and pay the Verizon bill for both February and March, but I needed to know how much he was putting in the bank first.  That's the only thing 'wrong' with these winter hours - it's a little rough on the paycheck.

Once he called, though, I went down and got that done.  It wasn't what I was planning on doing with our money with week, but...there it was.  Had to be done.  I stopped at Bob Evans for some lunch on my way home.  I was stupid and didn't eat before leaving home, and that was totally my fault.  I should have, but I can only blame it on my nerves and not thinking straight with all the other crap going on.  I tell you - I think I'm going crazy some days, and this was one of the days!  I did resist the heavy carbs calling me, though, and only had the half-sandwich combo (turkey melt sandwich and potato soup) instead of the chicken-n-noodles with mashed potatoes and a biscuit that I wanted.  Still carb-ish, but nowhere near as bad.  I sat there for over an hour and a half, just reading my book and NOT being at home, with all the everything staring me in the face.  When I got home, though, I brought the mail in with me and the phone was ringing as I walked in and it all started again.  I went and laid on the bed and covered my head with my pillow for a few minutes.

After a bout of crying and a serious talk with God, I calmed down and came to the conclusion that I am stronger than all of this, though, and got up, took a couple of deep breaths, and came out and -- got on the pute!  By the time Ron got home at quarter after six, I was back to 'normal' and ready for our evening.

We made hamburger patties for our supper.  I made him steamed veggies in the microwave for his side, and I had pretzels for my side.  When I put my food into MFP, I had more calories left over than I did yesterday, and I had fasted yesterday!  So, I made myself a bag of popcorn with a glass of milk.  It was a little late, but it was sure better than a sugar low overnight, and I was still 350 calories short for the day!  I couldn't believe it - but I hadn't eaten anything else.  Honest, I didn't.   Lunch, and supper.  That was it, until I had my snack.
I did have a bit of exercise, but I'm not telling you about that.  I don't tell y'all every little thing!

I'm sticking with my new motto - Tomorrow is Another Day! - and tomorrow night, I'll be up at St. Mary's Fish Fry, selling raffle tickets for a wonderful picture that we'll be drawing the winner of at Easter.  Come up, get yourself (and your family - we do carry-out) a good supper and see this picture for yourself and buy some raffle tickets.  Please don't make me sit there for three hours (5 - 8) in vain.