Thursday, March 20, 2014
The First Day of Spring (as of 1pm)
I woke up this morning, feeling much calmer and more determined than ever not to let these money troubles not get the better of us - more specifically, of ME. I'm not sure what all I can do, but the first thing to change is gonna be my attitude toward it, and that starts now.
Oh, I did have a sugar low last night. I'm sure you guys aren't surprised, I sure wasn't - I was expecting it, and like a dumbass, I took my pill when I went to bed, so I was really expecting it. I told Ron about 5 minutes after I took all my pills that I should have pulled that pill out of the pile, but didn't think of it. He and I laid there in bed and talked for a while, about what we can do now, and we decided to just get through March as we have been doing, and start afresh in April with new plans, new schemes and go from there. I got up when the sugar low hit, came out here into the living room, ate about 20 jelly beans, and just sat in my recliner. A little while later, he brought a sheet out and covered me up.
When he got up to go to work, he woke me up and asked me if I wanted to go back to bed, but I told him no, it was too hot in there (it's the coolest room in the house!) and I'd move later. He wasn't happy about it, but finally agreed, and left. I went back to bed around seven, and slept until 10:30.
I got up and did those dishes that I let slide yesterday, then I got on the pute for a little while - yes, just a little while - to check our banking and catch up my games. Then I got off the pute and gathered all the mail off my desk, got my checkbook and all that and moved out to the kitchen table. My first step in taking control back is keeping up on this - I have let this all slide since that huge clean-up I did a couple of months ago, and I just can't do that! I must keep up with it, just to keep on top of it, to prove that I CAN still do it. Also, when I do manage to pay things, that must be marked down also, so everything must be up-to-date to do that. I. CAN. DO. THIS. It will still be a long, terrible fight but we can fight the good fight! We won't give up and give in! We, and the lives we have built, are not worthless, even if they have no value to anyone but us. Money is not everything, though it helps an awfully lot. I like being the fly on the top of the wheel much better (those Laura readers will get the reference)!!!
After I got done with all the paperwork and got the table cleaned off, I made Ron's birthday cake. I decided to make a 2-layer cake as opposed a pan cake (sheet cake? in a 9x13 pan), and I wanted really thick layers, so made 2 boxes of mix, and filled each pan over halfway to make them really full . Into the oven they went! I will frost it tomorrow after getting home from my running my errands, and it will be ready for the celebration supper on Saturday night.
Then, I went into the bathroom and changed it over to Spring/Summer!! Today is officially the First Day of Spring, and it's time to get rid of the snowflakes and put up some color, I think. So, I did, even though they are calling for snow again next Tuesday. Mother Nature doesn't follow our calendar, ya know. I didn't go with the ivy this year. I put up the geometric squares shower curtain and put down the purple rug. The solid green soap dispenser and a purple towel, and the bathroom is now colorful!
Ron gets home, and we start talking about supper. He finally decides on cabbage steaks, and I make myself my poor man's shit on a shingle, which I had with some pretzels. Being as determined as I was to get things accomplished today, I hadn't eaten lunch (which wasn't really very good either of or for me, but...) and now I am hungry! Smelling food does that, I suppose. Being Thursday, nothing was on TV and all the dead guys and game shows were both reruns, too, so I am watching an Indy movie on SyFy.
I must finish writing this and go get me a snack. I suppose I'll stick with my popcorn and milk, since I have no better snack in the house, unless I only want a few cookies. I do suppose that I have enough open calories to have those, don't you? I think I'll have cookies! Yum.
Then I'll put my food into MFP and see how this day ended up and hope against hope that I make it through the night.
Busy, busy day tomorrow. Lots of errands and my friend is treating me to lunch at Olive Garden. After my mini breakdown yesterday, she is coming to my rescue, bless her heart. Walking with Lois at noon, then lunch with Kathy should certainly help to lift my spirits. If those two things don't help me, I am a lost cause and beyond all help! I'm looking forward to getting out of the house for a change, for one thing, and talking to my friends, face to face, as well as doing some walking, is gonna help even more!
Welcome, Spring, indeed!
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